It's been 10 years... really???

It's been 10 years...
Can't believe it...
Just 10 years back... same date, 5th August 2003...
Mummy, Papa, Bhai were with me... having tears and worry in their eyes... watching me by a small glass with hope, that everything will alright soon...
Yes, it was the day of my first surgery...
Can't believe that I am writing of these things...
Actually, never ever thought that I will write someday... but this day{05/08/03} changed my life, my perceptions and my goal a lot...
This was the time when I wrote my first complete poem... {u can read it at  MY POEM... 1st}
And I think, I was not mature enough before this period of time... but after this, my thinking also changed...

Believe me, in any such thing, not only the patient suffers but the whole family around suffers...
Well, in my case, the suffering started when I reached home... I got complete bed-rest for 3 months... so can't leave bed and also much more burden on mummy-papa...
Relatives, friends, people from Papa's office were use to come anytime... and then those sympathies... Oh my god!!! save me... I just hate them... It was like that I'm the only one who have to suffer from such problem... plzzz, there are many more...
And then, mummy use to get busy in the hospitality of these guests... she also gets tired from morning to night...
Everyone in the home was busy in all such things only... and at the same time my Nani {maternal grandmother} was hospitalized, as she was suffering from cancer... and she was just 52 kms far from us, so sometimes mummy use to visit her also...
It was a difficult time....
aaaah...
at-last got rid off...
but, today all the memories came just like a flash back in a fast forward way...
hmmmm....

can;t write anything more... :(

For the people... who made my life memorable...

Hmmm... where to start from???
From the day I went to school n got some of you, or from the day I got introduced to some you through some mutual friend, who is not in the scene any more, or from the day I got some mischievous call n then got to know that it is just for masti or from the day I got you back in some social networking site n then found you much more mature, or you seem to be mature bt inside you were the same... hmmmm... 

Whenever it was,
wherever it was,
however it got started...
we fought,
we smiled...
no actually, we laughed
we giggled
we discussed
we planned...
we agreed
disagreed
advices
"gyaan''
bakwaas
Either u taught me what to do,
what not to do,
how to do,
how not to do,
what decision u must take,
n what u never have to...
Some of you also taught me the importance,
of relations,
of time,
of love n care,
of distance,
of money :P
of home
of faith
of temperament
of patience

criticism
makkhan-polish
egos
attitude
showtime
real care

anything
anytime
anyhow
anywhere
whatever
...
Just a big thank u for everything...

HAHAHHAHAHAAAA...
amused na??? No guys, seriously... I don't want to loose this opportunity to thank you all...
THANK YOU SO MUCH KAMINO... bahut ho gai izzat... :)
Love u all...
n really, thank u so much for being there to me always...
in my smiles n sorrows... :)

MUUUUAAAAAH...
{be wid me only, otherwise... }

Listened him... after a long time... :(

It's not about some unknown person to you... its about the famous n awesome ghazal singer... Jagjit sing ji...
I'm really so sorry, but I don't have courage to add "late" in front of his name...
Well... this post is totally dedicated to him.
After 10th October 2011, today was the first day, when I listened him, otherwise I stopped listening to his ghazals, songs or bhajans. Not because he is not with us any-more, but because, I was totally unable to collect all that amount of courage that was needed to listen him. May be that was not the right way to pay the tribute to someone you loved to listen, always. But for me, that seems like something near to impossible. Even {I think it was January 2013 only}, my sister was listening him, and its on T.V., unfortunately I was sitting there. I myself controlled a lot, but unable... n then I cried like anything.
Don't know why, but there was a sort of attachment I found of his voice and my heart. I know, there are millions of people who loved him, adore him and they also found such attachment with him. And may be few are also mad like me, who were also unable to listen him anymore.
But, today after a long-long time... I listened him... and that is also by accident.
Cried a lil... but now I again start loving his voice as I do in past years.
Love you Jagjit ji... always
n u r here in our heart...

want to share that ghazal, which gave me my moment of love again...

Ghazal ka saaz uthao badi udas hai raat (Jagjit Singh)

It took me back... and made my morning... :)

Some noisy voice broke my sleep... Someone was screaming someone's name, outside... And the bus was also buzzing the horn continuously... which was much more irritating...
Having the first flat in society, n in ground floor... can listen everything happening outside...
Just removed the curtain of the window, to see who is having such a loud voice... seen a young schoolboy in his school-dress, watching towards the upper floors of the building...
It was nearly 6.30 of the morning... {yes, I use to sleep till this time, until n unless don't have parents with me... }
Suddenly I seen another young boy running out from the building's entrance, having his shoes in his hands, and hanging his school bag on one shoulder, n the lunch bag in another hand... Given a very sweet n cute smile to his friend n said "sorry'' very charmingly... Don't know either he is also Libran or not, but he was having the same charm n innocence which we seen many years before...

Yes, this whole scene took me few years back... the same situation... the school-bus driver use to buzz horn n we all tried to make him on the time, but no... he can't be...
Just one thing was not here, Mumma was not screaming n no servant is behind him, holding his bag n water bottle...
Time... It plays a very strange role, always...
How strangely it reminds me of everything WE went through...
How sweetly it reminds me of many-many idiotic n stupid moments WE spent together...
How smartly it made a complete movie by many short innocent clips...
And tend ME to write such for YOU...



{This whole thing happened, reminds me of my younger brother n his school days... From the beginning to the end of his school life, he was the same... ''late-lateef''' n then he used to hypnotize his teachers by his sweet smile n get the permission to enter the class... I remembered, till the time we were in the same school, even the teachers get to know that I came late cause of him... but he never got punished... Don't know how he use to manage this... :) }

Female foeticide... a better option :(

Last few days... disaster, shame, disgrace, dishonour...
Yes, m talking about the inhuman act happened in Delhi.
Everyone, reading this post is familiar with that disaster news, that's why m not writing it completely, or u can say, I m not having that much courage to write that.
But, seeing all such happened, watching all the news, n the discussion going on in every news channel is much more unsatisfied. How idiotically, we are discussing, that what must the politicians or the law have to do. And I also seen some people taking voice to the real problem that why such inhuman acts are taking place, but of no use. The host of those shows changes the topic, n changes the person also, and again they start discussing that what the Gov. should do. I'm not saying that, this is not important to discuss, but, is it possible that if u destroy few branches of any harmful plant, the harm will end.
And what the hell happened by discussion??? What anyone done??? Just few more coverage for news channels, just few more debates. Huh...
More such cases are in news. A news came, yesterday... a rape happened with a 3 year old girl, in Delhi only. Just think of her age, she didn't even know, what affliction took place with her. One more news, from Gwalior... again with a young girl. And many such news are in row... such a shit... such a shame...
The whole country is boiling, everyone is showing anger, everyone wants to punish those animals by there own way... but, is this the end of such brutal act??? Why can't we are finding the solutions??? Why not, we are discussing how to kick such bastards out of our society??? How to finish these creepy mental sickness from everyone's mind???
Ok, they are asking to give death sentence to those animals. Done. But, again, the same question, will it be the full stop of such problems??? Is she will be able to live her life normally??? Is her fortune will again be shining??? Or, will society accept her as a normal girl??? NO...
While all the discussions going on, on TV n around, I heard someone saying "bhai, ham apni ladkiyon ko isiliye bahar nahi bhejte, ghar mei raho, jyada surakshit hai."  Another said, "I don;t understand, why parents send their daughters for study outside, if they can't handle them. " 
After listening all such things, a question struck my mind, that, either any parent knows, ki what is going to happen to their daughter. And, I don't think any parent send their outside for such absurd thing.
And if keeping girls at home is the solution for their safety then why the hell rape happened at home only. I think, its been a month, I read a news, where, a father, brother n uncle are sexually assaulting a girl, studying in 8th grade, from last 2 years. And, her elder sister also, committed suicide after suffering by such cruel play, taking place at home only. Father and brother are the 2 most safe, sweet n important relation in a girl's life, till she gets married.
Yah, she is safe, until and unless she don't complain...
There is a saying in Hindi, "yadi shahar mei aag lagi ho to, aadmi sabse pahle ghar ki taraf bhagta hai" {means: if the city is burning then we use to run towards home first}, but what if the home is turned into furnace already.
Tell me about a single place where girls are are safe. Public places, offices, schools, colleges or home??? These animals don't see any relation, any age factor in front of their lust.
My cousin sister is having 2 beautiful, cute little daughters. After all such happened, she was asking me "what we will do, n how we will bring up our kids?" And suddenly a thought came, to which we are opposing from a long-long time, FEMALE FOETICIDE. I know, its a sin, but if I'll have a daughter n by her misfortune, any such thing will happen to her... then for sure, I will have a thought, that its better to kill her by myself only. {Only, by thinking all such stupidity, I get goosebumps.} Cause, I do not believe n my great country's, great law n orders... Its all like a crap...  :(
And, I never thought that, I'll write any such post... M really so sorry, if anyone got hurt by any single word of mine...